Friday, April 30, 2010

No man's land

"What do you want me to do lady?
Act lost,shaded
And abandoned like the other side of moon
Or serenade you with roses from my blood"

"Why do you say that dear?
We were not in love
We will never be
Coz love is such a small thing
It won't hold us both
The razor sharp minds
And intelligent words
It won't just hold."

"I got back my peace
And I really don't loose
So it's for nothing you and
Me are fighting"

"No,you got it
All wrong
I don't really care
All i want is the moment in time
When the poles turned
Words went wrong
And you heard half of what i said
And the other you wanted to hear"

All I'm searching for is peace.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Burnt Roses

Blurred eyes
Spurting blood
Unseen hopes
Dying in my heart
What is it?
What did i do?
Answers freeze
In hardened eyes

Words duel
An empty
Gaining nothing
Losing love
Is this where you want us to be?
No echoes,just my voice
In this one way black hole

I said "let's walk"
And you wanted to stay
I obliged, left my wings
Warm in feelings' keep
Now i cant find them
Vanished in the thin mist of

If we did walk,we could have seen
The sun rise
And not left in this numb darkness
Even this wouldn't have mattered,there's no blame
But your footsteps move afar.

The roses are burning
The song is ending
A troubled note
Rises from my psyche's keys
Death is fooling us into his well set trap
Were we born to follow and not fight?

Where are you going
What've you become
It is so special
And i am still waiting
Why did you have to do all this
Simply because a moonbeam
Chose to fool your eyes?
Why do you have to leave
Because I seem to hear your heart?

Monday, April 26, 2010


ചിലപ്പോള്‍ എനിക്ക്

ചോര നീരുന്നത് പോലെ തോന്നും
കണ്ണീരിനു മധുരവും
കരയാന്‍ മോഹവും തോന്നും

നീറുന്ന ചോരയെ ഒഴുക്കി വിട്ടു
തണുപ്പില്‍ തല ചായ്ച്ചു ഉറങ്ങുവാനും
എന്നെയൊരു അധിര്ശ്യ കണികയാക്കി
നിന്‍റെ ഓര്‍മകള്‍ക്ക് ബലിയിടാനും തോന്നും

ഇതാണോ ഭ്രാന്ത്?
അതോ വേദനയുടെ

ഉത്തരം തേടി ഇനി എത്ര ദൂരം
നിന്‍റെ കാല്‍പ്പാടുകളില്‍ ദാഹം തീര്‍ത്ത്‌
ഞാന്‍ അലയെണ്ടാതുണ്ട്?

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Inside an Unreal Dream

Sunshine fell
On the soft leaves' shade
And the wind sang
Our lives' song
World watched
But pretended it didn't

When you met me
it was as if two souls met
So long after,happy but
Unsure of when to go again
Or whether to stay at all.

A painful tug,a pull so light
But feeling like a thousand
Tears held back,smiles
firmly put in place
You and me shared
All the unsaid stories
And it was time too soon.
You never forgot to ask
But i failed to step along
By you in this dance of love.

What are you..
And me to you?
A single guitar string
Plucked by god's fingers
Is that you and me?
An eternal note
Haunting love
Across Time,space and
the test
Of hell?

Words unsaid..
Thoughts unheard
Choked hearts
Feelings so intense
It colored our eyes
And pulled us together in this dream
I looked away and laughed out loud
So that you won't know,not trouble you
Was it the same for you too..
Is that why you couldn't stare at me
And talked of everything
And so unsure of a smile at me?

I have no name for this
We really don't need one
No answers
No rules..
Just two souls or is it one broken
So far back in time?

And i don't know where these words
Are coming from
Coz' I'm so down,torn apart
Tears blind,a pain so pure
I'm lost,wounded
And bleeding inside my heart.

From behind these stars
And the darkness that nestled us
May be someone will hear this
Faint,hopeless prayer
Something will happen to make me
Live inside this unreal dream
With you beside,in the shadows
And on the path of togetherness.

Friday, April 23, 2010


I'm wordless
feeling less
See my status
The last of what i can manage right now..
Or for a long time

You made me cry
And that's all you need to know
You won the truest part of me ..
my tears.
And erased me in the process.

Traveler and Road

It's your journey
Who is the road
to question the traveler?
silent in its wisdom
or memories
it stays..waits.
And prays.

Thursday, April 22, 2010


എത്ര പ്രേമിച്ചാലാണ്
അത്ര പ്രേമിച്ചതും
പകരം ലഭിക്കുക?

എത്ര തിരഞ്ഞാലാണ്
അത്ര തിരഞ്ഞതിനും
ഉത്തരം കിട്ടുക?

എത്ര ജനിച്ചാലാണ്
അത്ര ജന്മങ്ങള്‍ക്കും
മോക്ഷം ലഭിക്കുക?

Never been a loss

I'm in kills
But am i at a loss?
I live a gypsy dream
Quick silver and quick sand like
Only i know the way across

I'm the night's witch,it's secret darling
The one to which nothing is hidden
Am in pain and i was in love
If there is a plural way of putting it
I was that too
But have i lost?
No..not ever and not forever

I dance the moves none dare to groove
I sing the song none could even lip sync
I draw the hideous that people hide
I am the word that all men fear

I am love,vengeance's dear
I am hate, your heart's near
I am you,and thou never see
And i lose?
No..never at all.

I had been in pain,had been vain
I had been many things you haven't even seen
I had killed and had been too
And i had dared what you never can dp

Never in a moment i have lost
Nothing is enough to make me feel lost
It's not the pride that makes me say
It''s the fact that I'm it..
Both loss and gain.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Love's Talk

"Always wen we talk,we reach at 'pregnant pauses"
tough time wen these are gonna deliver!"

'thoughtful words'

"when these deliver,that day,the feeling will be so dense,the screams so unbearable,that you being a man,will run away.away..away.
love you.."

' And what if u are aware of the pain
that's already there?'

" accept it"

And there r screams unheard..
"listen to them"

'and she is unaware of the pain and the screams..'

" its unimportant
how do you know she doesn't listen in her own way
or he
or them"

' coz if she would have known she would have asked
she would have let go of him
"that's what he thinks of her.
and may be she thinks..i hear them..maybe is just me..y scare him too..
and she smiles"
'she would have been thinking loud enough for him to understand'
" and all you see is the smile made brilliant by all the thoughts..their purity
' so fr sure there wouldn't b a day that he would run away

coz he wouldn't leave until she demands from him or until he comes across love as she is(which is something he wont let the time realize)
" love is all wishful thinking..or love is spent,hidden in wishful thinking that we fail to celebrate love
in thoughts,by thinking..we kill a little of the love we have
each day..
and the days pass
and at the end
wen the time for love's true test comes
there's no love
"instead thoughts,wishes,prejudices,would have-beens
love has long left
and the more needy of the two chases it..

the other understands,
For he or she could understand its been happening
accepted it
and never wanted to hurt the other

that's why wise men say
true love's course never runs smooth
because we spend time chasing it in many a heart,souls,worlds
before one day god relents and gifts it to us.."

And they all live happily ever after..

Dedication is to all who love and sacrificed on the altar of true love's journey..Thanks J&R..
Any questions you have is to be asked to yourself..and answers sought in your own mind..

Friday, April 16, 2010


ഏതു സുഗന്ധത്തിനാണ് നിന്നെക്കുറിച്ചുള്ള
ചിന്തകളെ മായ്ക്കാന്‍ കഴിയുക?
ഇതെന്റെ ശമനമില്ലാത്ത വേദനയാണ്
എനിക്ക് നിന്നോടുള്ള ഈ പ്രണയം.
പക്ഷേ എന്‍റെ ജീവന്‍റെ സത്തയും
നീ തന്നെ.

ഇത് ഒരു അടിമത്തമാണ്‌
നിനക്കോ എനിക്കോ മോചനമില്ലാത്ത
പ്രണയത്തിന്റെ,ലഹരിയുടെ അടിമത്തം.

മുന്തിരിത്തോപ്പുകളില്‍ അലയാതെ
വീഞ്ഞിന്റെ ലഹരിയില്‍ മയങ്ങാതെ
മുകരാതെ, നാം സ്നേഹിച്ചു തീര്‍കേണ്ട
അടിമത്തത്തിന്റെ ആഘോഷമാണിത്.

Death Dance

Senses arise,exalt
In a deep psychedelic trance
Love,blinds ..brings darkness
That lights up my soul

My mind croons a dark song
Draws blood,draws an evil pattern
In my eyes,sensual and bewitching
I know not how.

Lust burns, burns deep into my heart
Takes it to hell
And throws the empty shell
I wish I die.

Death touch,give Life to what i killed
To empty feelings, which slept
Waited long to
Avenge them on me.

Ecstasy dance, my bearings lost
I wander inside my own dreams
Touch burns,Breath burns
Yet i dive into that
Sea of live coals.

Dawn breaks, darkness sucked in
I'm sane
And the pain strikes
I courted it
And it came.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


You have been so real
So true in what you appeared to be
You were worth the risk
And I was sure I could walk miles with you
But then,why does a bad dream spoil it all
Is all the karma hunting me down?

I t wasn't love,no not lust
Not even the names we have learnt and left
It was just 'being' and now we have lost it all
And I'm all alone like a lost nun.

Didn't i tell you the road is steep
Didn't i tell you it's hard to be 'us'
Why then you tried the path
And left just when the dawn was about to break?

For you and any one who may come this way
Do not,for you hurt me by those dreams
I am safe this way,alone and loving

But don't knock on my door
And leave when I open to let you in.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

.....Affidavit oF THE loNe fIGHTER...

mY faiths

burning a cold fire in my eyes

mY truths

yet unattained from behind the

fog of prejudiced humanity

mY convictions

Shining before me, to lead me forth

Unextinguished by the World's opinion

its Karma

Or the myths of life



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Oh yeah, love is a wise bitch
Knowing the right time to pitch

All innocent and batting eyes
Yet so cruel ,it really pains

She creeps behind us when least expected
And makes all our dreams go awry and mind torn apart

She is a trap,that makes us so gullible
One which catch hard and make us responsible

I do not know why she does this
But I'm tired of the game and will play no more

Tired is my heart,it's faint beats
Tired are my eyes,from waiting so long

My feet ache from all the search trips
My mind is blank from all the love-hate

I thought I would find a friend in her
I was quite wrong,she is so fierce

A fiend to my longing life
She is a wise bitch
Knowing where to pinch.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

.....wHeN i saY i LovE YoU....

When I say I love you,
Am I trespassing your space?
When I wish to find solace in the depth of your eyes,
Am I going to be scorched by my selfishness?

There's not a moment in my life now,
When your memories remain abstract in my heart
All my constant worries,fears and phobias
Have long dissolved into oblivion since you

Your voice is as soothing as the
Melodious cooing of reclining doves
And as inspiring as the lightning's royal mien

But the spring rain does black magic on my
longing self
The growling thunder threatens me with imminent
The sight of wet,sprawling plants fills me with
a sense of loss

I'M as confused as a misdirected sparrow
Who against the unfavorable winds
faintly beats its frail wings "

The me-of-me you will never find,too subtle,too capricious but be sure if you belong to me and I sense that, I will ask you to stay and NEVER LEAVE- Meherin

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